Angel with me...

I had such great news to share... but for one reason or the other, I couldnt post anything in a very long time.

Its about my Angel. Remember my Angel from an earlier post? She had to stay away from me for about a year because of some circumstances neither of us could control. Then I sent for her to spend the summer holidays with me and, men! I couldnt let the Precious thing go. She's such a wonderful girl. Very smart, witty, funny, brilliant, intelligent (I thought these two meant the same thing, anyway, u get the jist, don't you).

So right now, the Little Angel is with me, it's a bit stressful (especially on our pocket) but its so exhiliarating to have her with me and its a mutual feeling. It means I get to watch her every growing moment... LORD help me to be the best for her, she's worth it.

How're you...?

He asked me "how're you?" to which I replied, "Loved!"

He frowned and asked "loved? by who?" I replied "my Father of course!" He still stood there, with d frown still on his face and I had to explain "I just made d most amazing discovery, even though it was something I knew all along, but it never hit home like it did few days ago. The discovery was that my Father loves me. God in Heaven. He loves me. Much more than His life, which was why He gave His Son's life for mine. If not, I would have been trying to figure out how to pay for the many sins I've been committing since my thirty something years on earth but can u imagine? He got it all sorted out, got my back all covered way before I even came on the scene. His love even reaches out to my future, so that if I happen to fall, He's ever present to catch and restore me. And d'you know d part that really trips me? He sees me through the blood that His Son shed for me, not through my personal achievements, not through d window of my success or failure, but through the Precious Blood of His Precious Son. And as a result He loves me unconditionally! My Father loves me, it amazes me everytime I think about it and today He told me 'walk in d consciousness of My love for you' I will, for real. I am loved, by my Daddy!" The guy just stood there looking at me and shaking his head as I walked away. Hope I left an impression on his mind.

I want the world to know that my Daddy loves me and I'm basking in it. More than this I want to always live in that consciousness, never forgetting the reality of His love for me. In the meantime, while I wait for the man He has fashioned for me, who will be a physical manifestation of His Divine Love for me, I will revel in His love. I want to get so used to His undying love for me and His glorious Presence that when my Gift (that's my man from Him, the one who will love me like my Daddy wants me loved, get?) comes I will easily recognise him cos he will reflect my Dad's love for me.

Know what? my Dad loves me unconditionally. I had the chance of having a shot at d meaning of unconditional love recently and I said, "Daddy, this must be a bit of wat You mean when You say You love me unconditionally!" Tell u about it (m sure u're eager to hear).

There's this guy I love so much. We were friends for quite some time and in d course of the friendship, my heart (which seemed to have a mind of her own back then, she's very much under control now, u bet!) overruled my head and bang! I fell desperately for d guy. Since he wasnt anywhere near feeling that kind of love for me he immediately started pulling off the friendship and ignorant (and foolish) as I was back then, I tried all I could to draw him back to me. My friends called me foolish, cheap, my guardian angels would have beaten me over the head a few times without me even feeling it cos I was investing all I could in the project of regaining the friend I fell in love with who has suddenly disappeared into the body of a guy I couldnt understand anymore. Then one day he did something very wicked to me, very wicked. My girlfriend heard it and called him all sorts of names (trust, I couldnt tell some of my other friends and guardian angels what he did), I was so heartbroken, I cried. So much. But at the end of the crying spree and drenched pillows I searched my heart and I simply couldnt find a trace of hatred for him. Not even an atomic trace! I was shocked!! I still loved the guy, after what he did?! I couldnt understand myself and that was when I made that statement to Daddy.

Inspite of all the wicked, heartless things we do to Him, rejecting His love, neglecting His advances, etc, He still loves us. He still loves us. He still loves us!!!

That love must be the Most Wonderful Thing that could happen to anyone on earth! I wonder how people live without it. It's the very Source and Essence of life. In fact, it is Life itself.

I love Him! so much. And I'm desperate for more of Him. Of His Love!

Been Long!!

Its really been long since I updated my blog! y'all will forgive me please?! wasnt intentional. been quite busy.
a lot has been happening really. i lost the friend i wrote about earlier, he just plain wouldnt call, for reasons best known to him. life goes on, doesnt it? i dont believe in running around after people. i do my best to save friendships but where my best isnt good enough to the other party, i advice myself and move on too. though its always quite painful for me to lose a friend. ive not really had much, and the few are so precious to me so i always try to keep them, understand?
ive been learning a lot too, about who I am and Whose I am. more about purpose, destiny, life etc m still in d process so i cant say much about it now but i know by the time He's through with me, i'll come out as gold.
the world will hear me. i will manifest the glory and majesty of the One Who called me. dats my Divine Mandate and my heart's desire is to do exactly that.
ciao loved ones. till i come next. might or might not be long from now.

ta ta!

Men!

Wats it with men and keeping issues to themselves!

When will they learn that the load will be lighter when they share it?! Ok, maybe not really share all, (a man gats to keep some things to himself, I don't really know why but I give it to them) but at least say things like "I need some time alone, girl, just a few things happening on the job or with the family, etc..." and that saves the person on the other side some pain.

Said I was losing a friend last week. I found out this morning that there was a problem on the job and the friend I thought shares everything with me all of a sudden locks up and locks me out! We've been friends for a very long time and I was of the view that when something of this nature happens he will at least give me a hint, not to plain lock me out! Ok, I'm neither girlfriend nor wife, but I'm friend, and a close one at that so what difference does that make? I had thought not being in that category will make it easier for him to share such a thing with me cos, well, there are no stakes here but...

It turns out that's the 'man thing' taking place.

Are we ever gonna be able to really catch up wit these men and their ways? I guess so, I hope so, God help us. I believe we will, well, as much as possible. We will, for real.

I just want to be a friend to my male friends just as I am to my female friends, being there for them as much as I can.

So help me God!

hmm...

I'm losing a friend and I seem to be helpless about it. Its such a painful thing. No, I'm not losing him to death. He's just moving on. I wish I could stop him, tell him to come back, to stay back with me.

But I can't.

He has his own life to live, dreams to fulfill, decisions made to stick to; so why should I make him stay back.

But I really wish I could. There's such pain in my heart and I miss him. So much. But I cant stop him.

I cant.

Sorry folks, have to stop writing... gotta go somewhere and cry

To you IU

He called me yesterday to tell me he went to my blogsite... "u didnt tell me ure as much a writer as u are a singer" he said. I was like, "yea, I love to write. It's one of the things I love doing most" and he was like "really?! write me a poem then" and I was like "m not really too good at doing poems, just do better writing stuff" and he went (I knew he was going to say that) "write about me". I asked "and post in on my site?" he shouted immediately "no o! m too shy, just do it and send to me!" hm, u dont know me IU. I promised to write about u but didnt promise not to post it on my site so here goes... (I know he will like it, by the time he reads through, no doubt).
This guy just suddenly appeared in my life, ie, not my life-life (ok, I explain better, not my romantic life), but my life (I told u guys I love making friends, and I promised myself never to pass up an opportunity to make friends). He barged into my office demanding, no more like asking, to see my boss (because of an injustice or something) blah blah blah (u know how 'the customer is always right' gets into customers' heads sometimes) and when I asked his name he told me and I was like "cool, ure my brother" that was it. We became friends. He ended up helping me scratch 12 recharge cards for my boss' phone (an activity that would have taken me like ages to finish, get?). We talked about almost everything from whats happening in the country to whats happening in the family to football (did we talk football, IU?) to me to him to everything untill my boss was through with his meeting and IU went in. I believe by the time he got into the boss' office he had forgotten he was angry (sort of) earlier.
IU is a very interesting character (I think all my friends are, yes that's true. I could write volumes about each of them). One day he walked into my office and I asked him "are u a witch?" (maybe I shldav said 'wizard' or 'warlord' right?). He was like "why?" (and the 1 or 2 people in my office were looking at me like I'd suddenly grown horns on my head, like 'u must be in d category to ask someone such a question'). The reason I asked IU that question was that anytime I was thinking about him, just give us 2 or 3 minutes and he will walk into my office (for real if he walks into my office now I will have no reason to doubt that he's a witch or warlord, watever). He's very open, very very inquisitive. He wants to know everything, I think I'm an inquisitive person but not as much as IU. Dont ever make the mistake of thinking loud before him, he will hound you untill he finds out what led to the statement and why you said it and when are you going to explain it to him and ... I think he will do very well as the leader of a paparazzi, somewhere in the backside of nowhere. lol!!!
He's the kind of person you'll be with and forget you had decided to keep certain things to yourself. And he's a very devoted husband and father (my in-law actually, cos I'm eyeing his first daughter for my second son, but I guess the future will tell, right? just kidding). But m-e-n, the guy is a sleepyhead! I invited him to a men-only service in my church, the service was to start at 7am, by 8:30am d Sleepy head sends me a txt "I've been trying to psyche my body to get up from my bed and it refused"! can you imagine this guy?! Anyway, he asked me to forgive him and I did (what is even there to forgive?) and from my kind heart I bought the recorded version of the message for him and the women only version for his sweetheart and they were thrilled (or so I heard).
IU is the kind of person I'll make friends with over and over again; very good, healthy sense of humour (if you can make me laugh, you're my friend for life), that's one thing I love so much in people, their sense of humour cos I love to laugh (they say it's good for the health, makes you live longer right? and reduces wrinkles, is that so?! hmm)
This is to you IU. Thanks for being my friend. You said to write about you, that was why I did this. I just posted it where I wanted it (phbbbt!!!)

My Angel...

Angels...

I believe in Angels. As in, Angels-Angels and Human-Angels. I really do believe Angels exist, both in their celestial and human bodies, cos I have experienced them often.

And also because I have an Angel in my life. A Human-Angel ie. She's 6. Her name is Diamond. Since she came into my life it hasnt been the same. She brought sunshine, laughter, light, boldness, courage along with her when she arrived on that simply, cool, nice morning of 1st November 2000. I took a look at her as the midwife held her that morning and she was crying, flailing her arms and legs as if she was saying "who dared remove me from that wonderfully warm sac I've been in for d past 9 months?! who did that?!" and I burst into tears! "my best friend, my Angel, my Diamond!" I cried. For real, she's an answered prayer.

For her, I'll walk whatever needs to be walked. For my Baby girl Diamond. She's sweet, smart (course with a mother like me she has no choice!), flighty, endearing, wonderful, full of life. You just cant help but notice her, and you just cant help but love her either.

This goes to all of you out there who have Angels like I do - enjoy the gifts of God. They're priceless! And for those who desire these Angels - may the Lord grant you your hearts' desires! You just have to have them.

Know what I do? At the mere sight of an older baby girl I go daydreaming about when Diamond becomes that big. I just cant wait for the day when I'll have to be shooing her away my wardrobe because she'll be there searching for what to wear among my stuff (not because she wouldn't have her's but just because we would be the same size and she wanna save her fancy stuff and wear some of Mama's fancy stuff!). get d drift now?!

It thrills her when I call her my best friend, in fact she's my bestest best friend and I'm really looking forward to the day when we will be doing "girls' talk" ie, talk about guys, fashion, parents, love, whatever, whatever, blah blah blah; giggling together, taking warm bubble baths together, taking trips to the shops, spa, gym, just having fun together.

Can't wait! No, I'll wait. I have to, cos she's worth the wait, I'm sure.

That day will surely come! For me and my Angel...