My Friends...

Yeah, guess I will never be able to stop talking about my friends. Will I? Maybe I will, but I hope not, because I make new friends each day and I love my friends like...

U know, after my last post I got thinking... the subject of friends for me is quite inexhaustible. Who can tell me? What is life like without friends? When I was in that place of 'couldnt make friends' it was crazy, life was sour, bitter; both bitter and sour. There was no one to talk to whenever I needed to, no shoulder to cry on, no one to ask advice from. It was not a sweet experience in any way. Its a life I will never relive in a million years, I simply blanked out of my memory.

But life is fun! Life is good! and life is short. I learnt during the past weekend to live in the now. The past is gone, the future isnt here yet, so make the most of the NOW!

That's what I'm doing folks! Enjoy now... I only have now to enjoy now. If I miss doing it now, it becomes the past and I cant get it back. Give the best to life NOW, give your best to your friends NOW, give your best to your job NOW (even if you dont really enjoy the job, give it your best NOW and you will see doors open to you for what you will really love), give your best to your business NOW (clients and potential clients will contact your love for what you do and you will notice a difference, you bet), give your best in all NOW. Its the least you could do; for yourself, for posterity, for life.

So I've made a decision: make friends, give my best to friends, love them cos I'm a giver, I love to give (I must confess, sometimes I give so much that I get exhausted and start to complain to myself, but I've realised it still doesnt stop me from giving. I just love to give), I'm not necessarily talking about material or financial giving, I mean giving of yourself; loving, being there for those you love, protecting, praying for them, caring for them, just loving like you would love to be loved but not because you want to be loved back, just doing it because you want to do it. Be lovable. It gives me a reason for living, when I remember I have people I love, who expect me to be there for them: my family, my friends, it fills me with anticipation. I'll give you a picture of what I'm talking about:

Just like 7 months ago I got a job in a big company (that's where I am right now!), so many workers! I've never worked in a place this big! I came in and, trust me, I started making friends. My circle of friends so increased that when I remember it's Monday and I'm going to see my friends, I get excited. I'll tell you what excites me. Here, I'm different things to my colleagues - friend to some, counsellor to some, mother to some, sister to some... and by the special grace of God I enjoy playing those roles in their lives. Each day brings me something new to do in my different roles and He enables me to give my best in whatever I am expected to do per time (for real, except for when I'm complaining about "giving so much and getting so little, for how long will this last?!" but well, I dont really do that too often because I just as soon forget I was complaining and start giving again at the slightest opportunity). I'll keep doing it cos I love doing it, even if I do not get back much today. It's not like I dont ever get anything back, I do get back, have to give that to my friends, cos I have friends that love me like... I have a friend that wouldnt let me date her brother because she knew him well and believes he's not the best for me, her words? "Babe you deserve the best and I want the best for you but my brother is not that best", can you beat that?! I actually have friends that have appointed themselves my Guardian Angels. One Guardian-Angel-friend of mine gave me a piece of advice that will surely be handed down my generations till God-knows-when; he said "dont believe everything a guy says: let his action prove his words" (very unusual coming from a guy to a babe, but that's the kind of friends I have). I will make sure my daughter learns this truth and my sons? I will tell them not to just speak empty words to a babe but to back it up with action (how about that?).

I know one day I will get back the way I expect, but that's not what I live for.

Wanna know what I live for?

I live for being the best for my friends and the ones I love.

What do you live for?

Friends...

Friends...

hmm... now that's a word I love very much, 4 real, that's one of my favourite words. I love to make friends and I love to know that I have friends around me and with me always. If not all my friends, at least one of them will always be there for me whenever I needed a friend, I lie not. I love to know that my circle of friends keep increasing cos its one thing I love to do - make friends.

Can you believe that most of the friends I have right now (about 98% of them) came into my life within the past 3 years?! I'll tell you why.

There was a time in my life when I neither could make new friends nor keep in touch with my old friends. Isolation. Islanding. Cos I was in a situation that I just couldnt do it. One day soon, I shall be able to discuss that situation, in fact, its another topic altogether. But I did find myself out of that situation with the help of two very special friends who saw the real me and wouldnt allow me to 'languish' any longer in that sorry situation.

So I'm out. I came out. And make friends I did! No Holds Barred! Guys, girls, old, young. And God has been bringing such great friends into my life that I often wonder what ever came over the person that did that horrible piece: "friends will let you down, friends wont be around when you need them most where are your friends. Friends are hard to find, friends yours and mine..." What??!! Maybe that has been her experience but my friends have been the exact opposite: they've been there for me, never let me down, very easy for me to find, hah! I find friends almost everywhere I go! and if I notice that someone doesnt want to be my friend, I give them space cos I only want to be friends with those who want to be friends with me. Guess that's the way it goes right? The Bible (that's my standard, you know) says if a man must have friends, he has to make himself friendly (paraphrased by me). But its true, how can people become friends with you if you are not friendly? c'est ne pas possible.

And we do need friends in our lives. Without friends I dont know what life would be like. I've often heard people say "I dont have friends, I dont make friends, I dont need friends"! w-o-w! I tell myself, "this one doesnt know what she's missing!" cos I know what I'm gaining through the friends in my life.

Friendship, I however believe, is in levels. I have many friends, yes, but they're in different levels in my life and though I might not have a man in my life right now, I have friends that I remember our closeness and I dont feel lonely (except I just wanna feel lonely, side from that, I never do, because of the kind of friends I have and the levels they're in). When I say levels I mean categories; some are quite close, so close that we can talk about practically everything (I'm blessed to have such a friend! I cant imagine what I cant tell him: good, bad, ugly, exciting, failure, success, the works), some we go real deep but I cant really download my failures to them and some we just laugh and jist and play and... but they're all my friends and I love them all.

Whew! Friends... they're one of the best things God gave to us to make life worth living.

All the best dearies! and I hope you have a swell time loving on your friends and making new ones. I'm enjoying myself here!

Here I am...

This is the first time I'm doing this but I have a feeling its exactly what I've been looking for. A place to share my heart. It's so wonderful.

How I got here?

My friends have been encouraging me to go into writing and I kept putting it off until I met a guy online (Yahoo Messenger, of course), a very nice guy, friendly, smart, handsome (mhm!), the works... He only chatted with me for a few minutes and suggested I go into writing. "oh no, not another one, this time a total stranger is telling me to go into writing! can you imagine?!" I lost touch with the guy (of course, isn't it YM?!) for a long time and just yesterday he resurfaced and while we were chatting he brought up the topic of "...into writing" again. I asked how? and he introduced me to www.blogger.com.

So here I am! I hope I use this opportunity well. I simply love to write, I call myself a 'chatterbox on the keyboard' and that's exactly who I have become, guess its time to see if that's really who I am. Do I believe in Destiny? I do, and I want to believe this is part of fulfilment of destiny for me; say it, hear it, hold it...

For real, from here I would love to tell you how I feel, what I feel, what I know, would like you to know too, hear from you, really hear from you. I think that's the part I would love most; to share your issues. We'll see how we can go about it. I'm sure we will make the most of it.

So talk to me. About whatever I get to publish here, about other things that are of concern to you, whatever. I have a feeling we will enjoy this.

I'd stop here and say a big thank you to my dear friend Krish; thanks a lot for this. My Pastor says God brings people into our lives to help us into our designed destination, I have so many such people in my life right now who have blessed me one way or the other. You, my dear friend, are one of them. Through you, I got here. A MILLION THANKS KRISH!!!

AND A MILLION THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS!! You all know yourselves. And to those I'm yet to meet, that I might meet through this door...

I love you all, guys!!