The answer was number 1... I didn't get disappointed... ok, maybe just a tiny bit but I expected such a response and it came just as I expected it. He even asked me wat my expectation was and I said I expected one of these three answers and I gave them to him. He asked if I was sad and I said nope, he didnt dig but for real I wasnt. U know I'll say if I was, I hate to lie to myself. I wasnt sad becos I originally set out to be his friend and then my heart tried to get in d way, now things are straightened out and we're still friends, in fact, d friendship is much more clearly defined now. I believe that's d standpoint on which a guy and a girl can be friends and it will last.
Like I said yesterday, I'll be d kind of friend God wants me to be for him. I'll obey God, won't send him away from me. I'll fight d attraction. m a fighter. I'll fight it so as to be who God wants me to be in my friend's life, that's d essence of friendship.
Strange... and funny, for a moment I thot I'd be embarassed and sad and u know... [I confess I was nervous when I was talking to him yesterday and I told him so - I know sey I get big mouth, dats me and I love me that way; 'better out than in' says Shrek]. I don't feel any of that. I'm so at peace... and m glad
yea m glad... i just made me a good friend. today during devotion the LORD said "as u open d door to new relationships..., I will overwhelm u with splendor" I look forward to being bathed in the splendor of my Living Loving Father!
My favourite word is still FRIENDS... I'll not throw away this friendship becos of a heart that can't be so smart attimes! No freaking way!